Diary Entry 22nd Jan 2001 The fear of love. When you have the fear of love. You fear love. You will not even recognise love. Because you fear it. Because you fear love you will not believe in love. Because you fear love. Its something that you don't want to see. When you fall in love and you fear love you may push the love away. You may push your love away because you fear love. Why would you want to push your love away. Because you fear the love and naturally you avoid everything you fear. Otherwise it wouldn't be a fear. Once you realise that you have a fear of love you must look inwardly. Ask yourself the question "why do I fear love?" or Even "Do I fear love". Once the fear is removed you will be on the quest of what love is. You may even be on the quest for love while you have the fear of love. That causes many conflicts. How can you search for something that you fear? What is that doing to you? What causes the fear of love? Well maybe a loved one hurt you. Maybe the loved one hurt you really badly. Naturally you will avoid this pain. But the fear of love lies even deeper. If you fear love you will not love your self. You may not believe that people love you. Once again you may even challenge the fact that love exists. Imagine a life without love. Imagine a world where love doesn't exist. The fear of love the the deepest of all fears. It causes a person to live in fear, to live in doubt. To live in a world on negativity. How about this. You may fear love and thus avoid love. You may enter, or feel comfortable with a loveless relationship. You may choose a loveless relationship so that you won't get hurt if it doesn't work. Or even you may deliberatly enter a relationship that you know will hurt you so that you confirm that love=hurt. You may begin to feel disalusioned with yourself you may seek love in alternatives. You may indulge in you your perception of love is. It may even cause you to seek love in the loveless, thus persuing a life of love-avoidance. You may find love, and then lose the love because you feel that the love you recieve does not tally with your expections of what you feel love is. You may enter into relationship testing love. You may test the love until you find a "flaw". You may actually lose someones love. Love that you once had. You don't fall out of love for someone. You become wary of there actions. You may interpret someones actions as loveless. You may even discover that the person you love loves someone else. The fear of love sends the mind into TURMOIL. The fear of love must end. The fear of love can only be conquered with love. The fear of love must end. The fear of love must be abolished. It all starts with loving yourself. Forgive yourself and love yourself. Love yourself to forgive yourself. Once you love yourself. You will naturally know what love is. As the way you love yourself should be the way others love you. Compasionately and caringly . The fear of love also causes the fear of loss. As once you may have lost a loved on. Maybe you fear the loss of a loved one. Maybe the fear of the loss of the loved one is linked to the fear of losing the love. The fear of losing a love is directly linked to the fear of love. You choose your thoughts. Your thoughts are directly chosen by your. A fear is an outcome you do not want. Everyone wants to be loved. Avoid looking at love with fear. Look at love with love. Watch the doorways open. Love is the binding force for the universe it allows you to view the reality you are in clearly without fear. If you fear love you may fear your life. So love your life. Billions of years of evolution. A fluke of nature. Whatever you see you are here now reading this. It magical . Its wonderous. So don't fear it, Love it. Forgive those who hurt you. Those who love you may hurt you the most. But love is not the consequence of ones action. Love is appreciation of life. Love is understanding. Forgive yourself. Begin to love yourself. Convert to Love. With Love. REMEMBER: THERE IS NO RUSH. Zak
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