Diary Entry 26th Jan
Flu Dream nightmare..
A mixture of a heavy weekend a bladder infection the flu, anti-biotics and a new diet inc Ginsing and kombucha mix left me bed bound for 2 days . The sweat poured from me by the bucket loads. It seemed like the fluid was exiting my body faster than it was being entered. The two days were intense. I was nursed back to health and Im back but my head is seeing things a hell of a lot differently now. What I encountered has probably changed the way I do things forever.......
The experience.
So Im losing consciousness fast. Im body has left. Im floating around some strange earthlike reality. Ive been here before. I recall everyone of my dreams, a technique I perfected from childhood. Basically you to and fro from consciousness to the dream. The only obstacle is that when you in the dream you have a tendancy to know you are there, thus assume that you will remember everything when you get back. Mostly a bad move. Best to assume you will always forget.
So there I was in my dream saying things like wow im here again and emmm I can get some answers and the usual. When all of a sudden I say this.
One year of dream time is one second of earth time. And pop out of the dream and into my standard meditation entrypoint. (see Zakmedition section). My standard fears arrive I visualise them and accept that they are my thoughts. Then the illusions are wiped away then the temptations. And ping the light at the end of the tunnel and SMASHAZAKAROOINTHENUTS im sitting up in bed. At that moment my fear of the situation tries to seep in ...NO NO. I avoid the standard mental subject change actions. and my MENTAL FOCUS IS LIKE NEVER BEFORE. EKKKKKKKK. Its like Im seeing soo clearly sooo clearly. Where I am what Im doing What Im doing wrong. Its all there. I then compile an mental list throwing things into there relevent category and wizz bang smack. INFORMATION OVERLOAD. So I switch the fact that I see the actions of my thoughts. Just like putting it in the background. My realisations began to elevate me. So I switch of the realisations. Then switch off all perceptions. Im seeing clearly. My mind keeps throwing the next thing at me. systematically im cleaning up my head....REAL TIME. I got up wrote a todo list. Mentally committed my self to the essentials and there I am. Finally happy with my mindstate.
Then BANG there is a FUCKING EARTHQUAKE IN INDIA. 2 MEMBERS OF MY IMMEDIATE FAMILY ARE OVER THERE. One i've MANAGED to contacted, the other is still uncontactable. The flight was only yesterday. Im like tripping. BIG TIME.
Apparently the area where my family lives has not been hit. But the estimated deathtoll is 1000 and rising.
Ive been assured the airport is safe and the family districts are o.k.
Im left feeling Emotionally detached. Im sitting here helpless...waiting.
All calls to relevent people have been made. All avenues have been taken.
I prey for the dead and their families.
I Invite you all to cast your positive beliefs, prayers, rituals etc toward the region.
Im awaiting phone calls, please do not ring.
Definately one of the worst weeks of my life....nightmare.