Karmicly Compromised

It was an effort for me to upload this diary entry. Im using a apple mac and Ive just got around to understanding how it works.

The path that I have been on has been very both dangerous and wonderful. It's been full of heartache and healing. Letting go completely and setting yourself free is an amazing concept. A concept that is fraught with dangers. My last diary entry I explained that I ended up completely homeless. Yes completely! No where to turn. I knew that the universe was on my side because I was given places to stay. Keys to friends houses and alway offered food. My businesses had to collapse completely as I did not even have the ability to deliver the stock to the customers. It was hell. 2 years of work went down the drain I knew that I had loads of orders, but unfortunately I was in grid lock. I could not deliver to the customers because I owed the delivery company money. I had more that £10,000 worth of stock and I couldn't do anything about it. It was hell. Then people started chasing me for money. Living Harvest first..They gave me the UK distributor rights to the protein and I could not do anything about it. Firstly I gave the bulk of my stock to Detoxyourworld.com and asked them to deliver to some of my main customers. I also had some of their stock. I was so bloody close to really kicking of a massive UK superfood distribution. So close but homeless. Why was I homeless.Well It was all too much pressure. Home educating 2 children trying to feed the baby and run a business with no money. and exploring plant and chemical brain boosters.  The financer pulled out when the bills came in and my business partners started squabbling about the shares in the company. So I ended up working 15+hours per day to distribut the protein in the country. Mission successful yet ,but I ended up on the streets. Great?I don't think so. My mission was to spread good food to everyone I know so that we can all rise together. But to be honest it all got a bit too much and my temper would often get the better of me. So Im banished out to the wilderness. Great.

From a beautiful family to the land of nothing. Well not quite nothing. All of a sudden the whole world was at my fingertips. I was no longer at the mercy of the system I was free. But I understood that free can also mean slavery. Slavery can have many meaning for this instance slavery means death of the comfort zone. I am no longer permitted to have the creature comforts of the past no longer allowed to live the way I used to.

One of the things I noticed as I walked "free" was that my mind was no longer pressured by all of those futile attachments that take up so much head space. When I had the house, car, and business. I was dead. The actual amount of mental processing I had was so low that I had to go out and get smashed simply to give myself somekind of orientation in live. I think of all those "high achievers" desperate for some personal headspace so that they can focus on the finer things in life. One thing I am glad of is that I no longer have that horrible MORT-GAGE. I am free from that horrible trap. So glad that I have set myself free from the evil credit card people and I am so Glad that I paid that wopping tax bill. I feel clear. The burdens of life that haunt so many people are not attacking me. Everyone seems to be on some kind of mission. Everyone desperate to get somewhere. Where was I going???? Only the grand universe knew the answer to that. I was to lead me into some amazing places, you will find out as the days go on. Im back now and I'll keep drip feeding you with the knowledge as it come through....

Love you all.....

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