Not too late to navigate

Hi world. Im back after a classic zak disappearance. Oh dear what a fucked up journey I have been on. Its embarrassing what I have been through. To say that I have been to the depths is no understatement. Imagine taking all the teaching that you have gained in your life, place it in an envelope and send it to your self when in need. Now throw away everything that is sacred to you including your family your loved ones and walk the solitary confinement of your own existence. Your delivery service fails to send you the envelope as you starve on the streets of your own failure. Keeping your head up high, some of the teachings trickles through and you begin to awaken from the poison of humanities ills. All thoughts become temptations and your hunger becomes the voice of reason. I slept under a bush one day, reflecting on the childhood pity I felt for a homeless guy. It was the first time in my life that I actually felt at peace! I gained a level of trust with the universe that I have never felt before. As  people walked past I had pangs of nervousness but they quickly passed as mother earth reassured me with her  protection. Was I lowering myself by experiencing such homelessness. Penniless and alone, lifeless and empty. The sleep became a voyage into serenity. Why have I done this to myself? what caused the very successful me to end up like this. Depressed? Not really! Lost? not quite. I felt freedom. No phone calls, no email, no internet, no business, no nothing.

What happened next was a voyage of self discovery, trust, pain and love.

Trust in the higher truth was an interesting lesson once taught to me by ISIS a very dear friend. She would remain in her centre and subtly suggest conscious teachings onto my existence. I didn't know it at the time but her teachings were paramount to my survival. I often came to very specific conclusions about life only to end up realising that Isis had already warned me about these circumstances. I know the almighty is our greatest guide. But I am embarrassed at my reality. I could have just stayed home and been a mummys boy and my life would have been stable? Well you can not look back. Its pointless.

One major lesson I have learnt. "Assess your standards continuously" Lower them only if they are too high. Don't beg, coz the universe will supply. I cried many times because my hunger would make my stomach clench. The depths were higher than I.

Its late and I am tired. But for you my treasured reader. I am back and alive and I have some amazing stories to tell you. Thank you for your patience I shall continue this entry at a later date. All I can say until then is that we are entering an amazing time and our consciousness will be tested with all the worlds events. Remember there        has always been things going on in this reality, its just that the information is flowing quicker. We are getting some amazing transmissions as the information we are receiving is becoming powerful. Remain in peace, relax every cell in your body. Forgive yourself continuously. Give up stimulants!

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