Pain and suffering.

The Neighbours

Seems to tie together. I have experience so much heartache in the last 3 months that I am surprised I am feeling so strong. Every set back makes me stronger. Today I had yet another threat from our neighbours. It always erupts from the carparking space issues. Basically there is a place where no one is allowed to park . The neighbours FROM HELL make a point of allowing there guests to park there. Today I reached my limit and shouted out aloud "DONT park there again". I mean peace and love and all that by these bandits are taking the absolute PISS. Yes I am officially pissed off. You see the situation is this we are under contract as to not speak to the neighbours. But the contract is a desperate attempt to tame the wild neighbours and control the length dispute about "absolutely nothing". You see in this country you have a thing called "a housing association" If you can prove that your neighbours are a nuisence that you can offically get rehoused. The neighbours have been using this tactic to get rehoused for years. Its their scam. 

Saleem

Still no sign of my little boy. His mother stopped me from seeing him. Its painful but I am giving it time. She wants any excuse to have me out of her life. She started getting scared that he was getting used to our new family. What hurts me is that my son is missing the early years of his sisters life. My father wasn't around much when I was young, so I think that this is some kind of family pattern. Not being given the choice to see my own son is painful but I feel that it is an important lesson. Ultimately everyone around is our responsibility. From the person next door (eek!) to the little lady down the road. I have such mixed opinions about the concept of family and responibilities that it muddles my life a little. There is such a thin line between my friend and family that it often crosses over. 

Grounding for abundance

Being home has shown me alot about myself I have noticed that I am getting more responsible about my live. The basics becoming really clear. My mother always says that I left home to early and that I didn't give her the time to teach me about the fundamentals. This caused loads of problems. My mother felt that need to keep me out of the kitchen.  It took many girlfriend for me to realise that I was not pulling my weight. Sorry!. But thats culture clash for you its very real and happens alot in society. We are all raised with the values of our guardians. 

Business and its treasures.

Ive been hacking away at the computer for a year and a half and spoken to a lot of people on the way. I've lost friends over it. I am confused by some people. 

The London Bombings.

Phew what can I say. London is a really scary place. For an asian man make sure you add atleast 3 hours to your journey the police are sure to stop and search you. What has been termed "intellegent profiling" is in opperation basically. They have a basic discription of a person that is high on the "probably going to do some harm to the public" and they send the security forces in. They have to be really on the ball as now they are not just dealing with random people who may fight back they are dealing with the infamous Suicide Bomber. Its a crazy concept I know but apparently these people take there lives for political and religious reasons. Before Pakistan was given its independence there were a series of well occustrated "incidents" that made the alot of villages fight It was hindus agains Muslims. The conspiracy heads amongst us would argue that it was planned because the Muslims didn't want to play ball with the UK empire. Well the formation of pakistan and forced them to play ball now. I mean what amazing cricket players they are!. It like come on Africa in "sudden " civil war. WHO ARE SELLING THEM THE WEAPONS???. THESE ARE THE REAL CRIMINALS!. The arms trade has only one thing in mind "DEATH". The best marketing campaign for the arms trade is to start a war!. It sells arms.  Im not saying that this has happened! but I am saying that selling weapons to underdeveloped countries is "A STRATEGIC WRONG MOVE" for our future Generations. Who is making the decision here!.STAND UP BEFORE THE COURT AND FACE WAR CRIMES. If you are selling Weapons, YOU ARE GUILTY OF WAR CRIMES"

Thats it!

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