Well, I am here. Two days later. The mind the scape, the realisations, the GeeWizz the Rightside of my Brain the understanding of compassion.

Over the weekend I attended a night called Mindscape. It was a chance discovery, that led me to some very interesting conclusions.

If you wonder through my previous entries you will probably notice the "HYPER" side of my writing. Where everything seem amazing, where the wonders of the world stuck a huge note instead of registering on a level of normality, where the simple acceptance of the situation should be enough.

In the past with a very low self esteem, every one of my achievements were almost like a miracle. I would marvel at my own achievements for days. Purely because I really didn't believe that I could accomplish anything. However as time went on I discovered that it was getting easier and easier to do things, and not harder at all. My ability to speak my mind often got me into a lot of trouble, this was not an act selfishness it was purely an act of courage. As my ability to communicate about anything in the past was not possible, as my upbringing was shrouded with interracial confusion, Self-consciousness and insecurities.

The Gee Wizz factor, not this is interesting. The Gee Wiz Factor is where you respond with "WOW" "THATS AMAZING" "I CAN'T BELIEVE IT". its where the information that you hear is often too much to handle, as its implications can indeed change your intire mindset.

So mindscape....

I was approached by a person that came to the conclusion that because my vision in my right eye is limited to about 30%. It means that the analytical side of my mind is in serious over-drive.

Also because my mother spoke basic english when I was a child, I had to break down what I was trying to say in to a few basic words. So when I carry around a notebook and jot down a few words, they actually mean a lot more. I never really made that total connection before. So the questions that I ask is, my conclusions may be really important to me as the side of my brain that I use is purely analytical, is it interesting to anyone else?

The Website.

I almost abandoned the Website mission. but I feel I must continue as it really shows the growth I am achieving and if the whole world can see what is going on in this little head of mine, there might be someone that I can associate with.

I often feel that I am alone in this internal mind mystery. I know I can switch it all off. and become that collective cloud of reality. and do what I should do and be the path that guides my way. Or I can do that and analyse it and document it.

So i'll contiue....Its quite tricky not to get people involved, But this is a medium where I am talking to the reader as well. So a personal journal would not be appropriate!

Revelations

So my little notepad- I take this around with me and jot down important realisations here is the latest:-

1, Never be intimidated by your own thoughts.

2, Its possible to Percieve a perception.

3, If you are absolutely comfortable with yourself you will not seek attention.

4, Revelations are your personal property (But I give em out)

5, Don't toy with peoples emotions.

6, If you play victim you will want people to feel sorry for you - A need to be cared.

I was asked the question

WHY DOES A CAT WHEN IT SPINS?

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