The Diary
10th April
| i | I was thinking on dropping the Ego ...so I need to understand what it really is. Firstly do I have a need for attention? What is the need for attention? is the need for attention necessary? So lets streams so thoughts shall we...........
Need for Attention What is the need for attention The need for attention is the need to be seen.
What is the purpose of the need to be seen? What I believe is that the more attention you receive the more important you feel, subconsciously. Although as you know that is not actually true. But get this how do you think the media works? The more times you see something the more significant it is in your mind. O.k. so you know the famous Coke company...right. Thats because every corner you look you see the advert. then they take it further, the link the coke to different parts of your psyche ie for Happiness, for friendship, for sport.. So we are with a friend we don’t know what they are thinking but you buy a coke coz its the one thing you know and as a natural movement you flip a coin in the machine and press the coke...although if So the need to be seen is to RAISE SIGNIFICANTS.
The need to be seen also has some interesting sub catagories You psyche is amazing at saying exactly what blockages your mind has by way of projection.
Non attraction aggressive for instance if you dress aggressively you probably fearful as your need to show that you are aggressive is linked to the fact that you want to warn people that you are aggressive which means that people will probably not approach you, it can also mean that you are insecure and don’t want people to approach you for what ever the reason you have.
Attraction (appearance, vocal , gesture) Thought projection You naturally project your thoughts physically. -This can be switched off but generally if you think that you are attractive you body will go in to attraction mode. if you are continuously in attraction mode you continuously have the need to be seen as ATTRACTIVE. although YOU BELIEVE that you are significant coz people are looking at you. I
WHY RAISE SIGNIFICANTS? You raise your significants if you feel insignificant....... Its a balance adjustment.
The balance adjustment theory everyone has a balance. Total Normal is your center point. What is normality to you? Normality is the point you body is constantly trying to achieve. if you have a warp perception of normality ..... Simply construct what you think is normal...THIS IS IMPORTANT. Why would someone feel insignificant? this can be linked to loads of thing, but in my experience. If you didn’t get enough attention as a child. you will probably grow up feeling insignificant. if you feel the human race is nothing in nature you probably won’t feel the need to be significant.
The need for attention The need for attention is equivalent to saying "see me i’m here"
"See me" The need to be seen is the need for attention. the need for attention is the need to be significant the need to be significant is an insecurity an insecurity that you are not a part of something. if you feel that you are not a part of something you will feel worthless if you feel worthless.... you will try and make yourself worthwhile.. How is your choice.......... So ask yourself these questions. 1, Am I significant? 2, Am I important? 3, Do I crave attention? The problems associated with the need for attention 1, Self consciousness (conscious of the self) 2, Too much energy associated with getting peoples attention. 3, the good feeling of attenion is not necessary YOU ARE LIFE. THAT IS THE MOST IMPORTANT AND SIGNIFICANT THING ABOUT YOURSELF....AND YOU DON’T HAVE TO PROVE THIS TO ANYONE BUT YOURSELF.
summary
Seeking attention is fun but don't believe the feelings are relevent to anything but your SELF.
WHAT REALLY IS THE SELF? _____________________________
Home reality check....
Im feeling good with myself today...Im thinking of putting a huge feather in my yellow and purple had and have flashing NEON lights fitted around my ankle and my psychedelic t-shirt that sings happy merry tunes of yesterday at about 1000Db. just coz the need to be seen is understood now...so I can go and play and SEE WHAT ATTRACTS. Heres a random thought ACT WITHOUT DOUBT. BECAUSE IF YOU DOUBT WHAT YOU ARE GOING TO DO YOU WILL DONOT DO IT . THIS STEMS INTO LOADS OF THINGS IE CONFIDENCE.. OH NO I THINK IM GOING TO BLUUB OUT MORE STUFF HERE -I was only going to write down "ACT WITHOUT DOUBT" ACT WITHOUT DOUBT This is because if you have a doubt you will not actually know what you are doing is right! this is a GAMBLE so act without doubt if you wanna take a gamble ALWAYS ASSESS THE RISK. if i have an insecurity about my grammer and my writing i will doubt whether I can write . but I have no doubts whether I can do something I will do it. what creates doubts.. with my writing I don't actually know anything about grammer, SO THAT CREATES THE DOUBTS...,.. ho ho thats a weird thing because I don't know how to actually do something I have a doubt whether I can do it..HAHA ...THAT IS SOOOOO OBVIOUS... SO ITS NOT THAT I CAN'T ITS BECAUSE I DOUBT WHETHER I CAN DO IT BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW HOW, BUT I BELIEVE THAT I MIGHT KNOW BUT I HAVE NEVER CHECKED, THAT CAUSES ME NOT TO STOP. ALSO MATT TERRY THE MASTER OF THE GOO.... YOU WILL HEAR ABOUT HIM AS THE SAGA GOES ON ...HAS A THEORY...that when I was young I couldn't see the point of learning the i before es unless there is a C..cause it was too boring....THAT IS TRUE.. ASSESS YOUR DOUBT. WHY DO YOU DOUBT YOU CAN DO SOMETHING... A DOUBT IS SIMPLY LOGIC. YOU DOUBT WHETHER YOU CAN DO SOMETHING BECAUSE YOU DON'T KNOW HOW. SO IF YOU HAVE A FEAR OF LEARNING YOU WILL DOUBT YOU CAN DO ANYTHING THAT YOU CAN'T DO. ITS A COMPLEX.. THE LEARNING-FEAR-DOUBT COMPLEX HAHAHA A NEW DISCOVERY...YIPPY...SO DOUBT HAS BEEN ILLUDING ME .... THAT IS A PROGRESSIVE DISCOVERY. YOU READ IT HERE FIRST (C)
ALSO....... IM NOT GOING TO INTERPRET OTHER PEOPLES REACTIONS BECAUSE I CAN'T READ MINDS. AND THE SUCCESS RATE IS DIRECTLY LINKED TO HOW PERCEPTIVE I AM IN THAT GIVEN SITUATION. MAYBE INTERPRETATION IS NECESSARY. IM NOT GOING TO ACT ON WHAT I THINK IS OTHER PEOPLES INSECURITIES OR WEAKNESSES. WHAT WOULD LOWER THEIR SELF-ESTEEM. BOY IM ROLLING TODAY. I realised that I ignore loads of rules.. I think I have written the rules for myself....I really assess what the rules are ALWAYS ASSESS THE RULES....
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