Its difficult in life when you begin to achieve what you once thought was un achievable.

What I have now is beyond the dreams of a million + people.

Did the material world temporally take over me.

Did the greed of comfort cloud me?

Why has it taken me so long to realise that

happiness is not Material......

When I gave up television 5 years ago, I began to see what was really affecting my life.

what was real.

what was governing my thoughts.

what was an illusion.....

I APOLOGISE TO THOSE , WHOSE  CRIES FOR HELP I IGNORED AS MY NEED TO SURVIVE WAS OVERTAKEN BY MY GREED FOR

SUCCESS.

I APOLOGISE TO THOSE WHOSE TRUST I LOST AS MY STUBBORN CHILD-INDUCED MORALS CLOUDED

THE TRUE GUIDE OF MY HEART.

I SAY SORRY FOR THOSE WHO I HURT WHEN I MY DESPERATE QUEST FOR ANSWERS

CALLED FORTH THE RUTHLESSNESS OF THE ARMOUR AROUND MY SOUL.

I APOLOGIES TO THE ONES I LOVED, THE ONES CLOSEST TO ME, THOSE WHO I  BELIEVED DID NOT NEED ME

AS MY SELF-BELIEF QUESTIONED THE LOVE I RECEIVED, AND DAMNED THE ADVICE THAT GUIDED ME TO THESE VERY WORDS.

I SHED A TEAR FOR THE  CHILDHOOD  THOUGHTS THAT REACH  OUT WITHIN ME WITH THE SILENCE

OF FEAR AND CONFUSION.

I forgive those in the past that instilled their pain on to me.

I accept the scares on my body  that remind me of violence I once received and laughed of as my tormentor continued

to pursue the blooded response.

I forgive those who lied to deter me from their real thoughts.

I understand those who see not the pain that they give as they protection of their self is

a survival entity that is soon to disappear.

I UNDERSTAND THAT THOSE WHO QUESTION MY ACTIONS MAY BE CONCERNED OR COULD EQUALLY BE CURIOUS.

I UNDERSTAND THAT MY ACTIONS ARE DIRECTED TOWARDS THE GOOD.

MY SEARCH FOR RIGHT AND WRONG OFTEN CONFUSED MY JUDGEMENT OF GOOD AND BAD.

THE RULES OF EXPERINCE ARE MERELY AN APPRENTICE TO THE MASTER OF THE SOUL.

I UNDERSTAND THAT MY TEARS ARE NOT THAT OF PAIN BUT THAT OF A RELEASE OF AN EMOTION EXHAUSTED.

TODAY I WILL DEPART  all traits that PLAY VICTIM

.AND UNDERSTAND THAT EVERY NEW DAY IS A GIFT THAT PRESENTS MY

LIFE WITH A CLEAN VIEW OF AN UNCHARTED, WONDERFUL   REALITY.

THE MAPS OF KNOWLEDGE WOVEN WITH THE TOOLS OF THE PAST, SEND ME FORWARDS

EACH AND EVERY DAY, THEREFORE.........

I THANK THE UNIVERSE FOR SETTING ME FREE TODAY......

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