The Diary
04th April
| Right the weekend was that of a spiritual nature....as expected. It started of with the making of an environment within the Warp. See http:\\www.thewarpexperience.comMy partner in crime and I work into the late hours of Friday night creating a covering entity made of fabrics that were loaned to us. We the 24 hour party was a shrine to the effort of humanity....unconditionally Ive realised so much over this weekend that my mind is indeed a different one today and beyond. So parts of the story. The three states of the mind were explained to me Child Adult Parent I believe that my child state would materialise far too much. Often I would back down in an arguement (submissive Child), and not explain myself clearly. or let things go when I should have raised them. Learning to know what to say and when was one of the hardest things I have ever encountered. If you have a fear of regection you will probably not regect others. An interesting conversation came up about the search for perfection. If one is in the search for perfection, then one believes that they know what perfection is. Never seek perfection Feeling lost? If you feel like you have no direction in life you may subconsciously seek direction! how do you seek direction? There are many many ways to seek direction. 1, Seek strength in others. this is the subconscious mind way of latching onto someone elses strength. where you analyse the persons strengths until you learn them.
2, Needs, wants and desires. Continously assess your needs wants and desires. Very important. If you are continously looking at other peoples strengths does that mean you are not happy with yourself? Do you aspire to their strengths? I personally am very happy with myself. content, need to brush up on a few things but thats it really. I have decided to redo the way this diary works ...All theorys will go on a seperate theory page! 05th APRIL O.K. DAY 2 OF GIVING UP SMOKING AGAIN We are in this universe, that is a fact. We are looking around... we are observing. For some people the question of what the hell are we here for is a big one. I find personal self motivation a difficult one. Im great with ideas.
The giving up smoking is my go towards the health path. if your physical body creates the mental thoughs, you will be at a loss if you physical body is not at an optimum. Here is my theory!...its a profound one, and I should put it in a theory page but I won't. Im heavily into the conscious developement... I believe that the conscious minds has different levels of energy...the more the energy the more the consiousness of a given conscious thought. I know that different foods activate different types of conscious streams... So im going to explore the food side of life.... I want to be at optimum health. I believe that will supply me with some answers of what is out there. So back to the theory....some say that things are introduced by the universe, purely to ease up in to the understanding of the universe, some things are there to suppress our thoughts, so that we can explore parts of the mind. Alcohol for example, what does it do? It makes us more confident! it makes us lose our judgement. LOSE OUR JUDGEMENT! ALCOHOL MAKES YOU LOSE YOUR JUDGEMENT.... WHY WOULD YOU WANT TO LOSE YOUR JUDGEMENT? BECAUSE YOU DON'T HAVE FAITH IN YOUR SOBER JUDGEMENT? SO THAT YOU WANT TO SET YOURSELF FREE FROM YOUR OWN DECISIONS, BECAUSE, MAYBE YOU ARE TOO SUBBORN TO SET YOURSELF FREE, THAT YOU USE ALCOHOL TO RELEASE YOU FROM YOURSELF....JUST A THOUGHT ... So cigarettes....without them my thoughts are pure....uncluttered, not tired, nothing wrong. with them, im tired, feel crap with myself, a feeling of being a failure. WHY WOULD I WANT THAT? MY BATTLE USED TO BE CIGARETTES...BUT NOT NOW!... CIGARETTES SURPRESSES MY CONSCIOUS MIND!.. SO PREPARE FOR MAXIMUM CONSCIOUS OVERLOAD!.... I'LL DOCUMENT EVERYSINGLE NEW REALISATION........ CAN'T WAIT IM FREE FROM THE TOBACCO......... OR AM I?
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